Day 8. Who’s someone that you used to be really close to, but you’re not anymore?

First of all, it’s not someone. It’s THEM.

My College buddies perhaps? I was close to them back in College. Until I failed some of my subjects and I became an irregular student. It wasn’t intentional. The said subjects were really hard and I’m not the only one who flunked it. Anyway, eversince that incident. I felt I became alone. Yeah, sure, I still hang out with them, gossip with them, chat for hours, but deep down, I lost them. I don’t know how it happened.

There was this one incident that I felt really isolated from them. It was when I was in my friend’s dorm that day just waiting for my next class. It was the month of December. We were chatting as usual until one of our classmate — whom my friends befriended spoke about their upcoming Christmas exchange gift. I forgot who it was but that classmate of ours kept on saying the details about THEIR exchange gift. At first I was confused. But then it hit me big time. At that point, I felt like an outcast. All of a sudden, I was silent. My friends, whom I considered MY FRIENDS, didn’t even bother to tell me about it. It seems that all was planned (the exchange gift program) and I’m not included. I felt sad, bad, and betrayed. So what I did is to just turned my back away from them, pretend I didn’t hear any of it and make myself busy by scanning my notebook. I didn’t know what happened next.

I will never forget that. I have no grudge against them. I just.. felt sad and lonely at that time. I didn’t tell anyone about it until now. YES, NOW.